wah todae te inorganic paper was a killer...haiz..last sem i nearly failed my organic chem...tis sem is inorganic chem...wth..i dun even noe y i take chemical in te first place...sad lar...haiz haiz....yeah after dat took a walk wif my fren lols...walk until v tired...nearly fell asleep in the bus on te way home...hmm...thurs laz paper...but te paper todae kills my mood off le...dun wanna fail...

• slept abt 3 plus laz nite..nowadays cant slp early...haiz my brain is alwasy functionng, thinking abt stuff..lol
• woke up at 11..played dota for awhile..
• Went amk mac to study from 1 plus to 6 plus..wah lau 5 hrs...first time wor...te best thing is dat i study finish liao..lols...so noisy duno how i manage to study oso..
• Came back at abt 6.40...thr now i writing blog...no one at home..sianz...
• hmm those who finish their exams muz be going out everydae...lols.. gd har...
• haiz abit tired le...later got manu vs wigan..muz watch...man u betta nt lose..hopez :p
• tml test 12.30...gonna go sch at 10..dats all bahs..enjoyz ur dae, smile bah :)
  

dad came back early todae...can see he was in a bad mood...duno wad happen den my parents start quarrelling ..i think is becos of my bro...he wans to go on holidae den ask from my dad money..dats wad i think...nt really sure...if i nt wrong, my bro wanna go thailand to pray..my dad dun believe bahs...he say he dun believe youngster now go pray...but dats wad i did last sunday..yups went waterloo street the guanyin temple myself...kinda lonely...but juz go..haiz, anyway i dun think my dad will understand me...or wad i haf gone through...neither will i understand him...

Actually wanted to ask from my dad $200 for my bdae..cos nid to treat frens mah...hmm i think i gonna use my own money...haiz...y am i sufferring?...done so many things myself..good or bad i oso dun tell my dad or mum...kinda tired to keep everything to myself...but i juz dun feel like saeing...sae oso makes no difference...i really v tired wor...so many things running through my head...

Todae sat le...haiz..juz haf te feeling of slacking...recently mood v down..why har...sad lar..life always makes ppl sad...how to be happy?...my inorg haven touch..forgot everything liao...i think after exams..i go everyday slp...slept at 4am laz nite..couldnt slp...den i couldnt wake up at 8 to meet my frens cos they wanted to jog...lol i always liddat...feel kinda bad..duno how i going to manage my life...always seem so messy n confused...haiz...forget abt it bahs..let my life juz drift awy to wherever, until it meets either te shore or some boats...in life u juz need some true frens and a gf whom u love..


Another guang liang mv :p

Former Deputy Prime Minister S. Rajaratnam, one of Singapore's founding fathers, has died.

1915 - 2006

First and foremost, greatest condolences to his family. As singaporeans, we are all very grateful for his contributions and all that he has done, to make Singapore wad she is todae.

Gold bless him!

Omg how?....after my maths exam...i no mood study for next mon inorg n next thurs biochem..haiz...sianz die liao...sumtimes i wonder y muz we study?...even if study, y muz haf exams test etc?...exams n tests are juz..hmm how to sae...are juz tools to gauge how u fair at that instance..u noe wad i mean...dosent imply that if u do well for dat exam at dat time, means u r smart etc...it can be juz dat at dat point of time, u rmb ur work or u noe te steps to do it....

Sumtimes even smart ppl fret during exams, cos they r too pressurized and cant rmb te work they were taught, and the steps n formuales to do it...so conclusion is exams r stupid...why?

->Exams can only judge ppl at dat instance, nth more.

hmm okay, dat's juz some inspirational words for u guys who din do ur exams particularly well...i myself think that i din do well lols...hmm juz take some time out to smile n be happy :p

Now lets move on to my life journal..hahas...lets put it in point form bahs..smth new :p

• Yups, had my maths exam ytd..din checked my work..didnt noe a few qns tat's worth quite alot of marks...of cos sadded...
• hmm..next muz save money...cos muz treat my frens to some tung lok place...lol, think no time to save liao...duno how to fork out te cash....
• todae, i dun think i doing anithing lor..nth to do...hmm yah..actually te nyp video got 4 parts..most ppl onli haf te video named part 2..hahas..thanks to my fren, kai hon..dota noob LOL..he like to call himself dat lar...
• "ooO, i see"...is a fav phrase of alvis.. dat ^$@#^#&% lol...hmm ok lar, dat "average-looking" boy who always piss ppl off...always tok to u halfway den fall asleep...idiotic huh...he's currently persuing his dream to jio somebody lar..hahah....he act humble nia...handsome boi cannot get ger 0_0
• hmm here's another scenario..lets sae u haf alr completed a yr in poly..which means yr 1, will u switch to another so called better course like business, and return back to yr 1? Does it sounds logical or retard? hahas...leave ur comments wor...dun see den zhao...
• okok i noe i writing a compo...so end of compo..thank u..haf a nice time marking it lol
  

有人说是件可以让人忘记一些事情 甚至是一些我们不想忘记的事

说好的 三年不见面
用我们的爱把时间留住
你笑着说 这是我们的考验
我们的约定

就这样 三年又过了
我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼 等你出现
空气中吻你的脸
我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
它也偷偷的掉泪了

我还记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想它会告诉你的
我更爱你了

就这样 三年又过了
我还是回到这个地方
闭上眼 等你的出现
空气中吻你的脸
我还记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
它也偷偷的掉泪了

我还记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连那风都笑我了
我想它会告诉你的

你会记得我们的约定
一辈子幸福的约定
为你写的那首歌
它也偷偷的掉泪了

你会记得我们的约定
我比以前还更爱你了
连着风我也笑了
它一定会告诉你的
我更爱你了....

我真的更爱你了....

haiz, his songs all kinda sad...in tis movie his gf is mute...rmb in tong hua, his gf got blood cancer....he seems like a v sad but sentimental person :p..tis song 约定 v nice...hopefully i can start all over again..

yoz...i went back to sch for some biochem tutorial...muz go cos ggot tips...didnt had my lunch kinda hungry...went back at 4 plus.....wah i hit my head when i was going down te bus...i think ppl see liao laugh lols...recently becum v blur like sotong lolwent back den saw a baby lying on a mattress...lols...my relative's son...haha tot who spawn te baby out...tml is maths exam at 4.30...damn sianz...i dun wan to study.....hahas

wah stress stress....maths exam on thurs...struggling wif it..cos i always skip his lectures..duno how to do my stuff now lols...todae went sch study...from abt 12-3 plus....den went dota later...tio thrashed by some ppl lar...lols...parents not at home..so gonna buy dinner..but din buy..juz ate some snacks..lols lazy to buy...muz study liao lar...but actually i still kinda relaxed lols...always liddat de...not a bad thing oso..btw avoid using contact lens....seems bad for te eye after hearing some recent news abt it...hmm btw my dad up my allowance...cos i complained $60 a week wasnt enugh lols...hmm couldnt slp te past few nites...stayed up thinking abt things...or rather te things kept me awake..haiz...

Went to my fren's chalet at downtown east...her bdae mah...first let's look at her cake lols


lols, i think te pic's inverted...hmm nice rite..

hmm went thr..tok tok, play some cards..eat some food...den we ton for te nite at pasir ris park..the beach...no whr to slp..no ground sheet, cant slp on te sand...the rocks smelled of pee..lols..i think's its te sea...but cant be so smelly rite....den we went to some stage thr to rest...i didnt slp throughout te nite...except for a short rest bahs...very windy...shiok..but kinda cold...lols..my frens all complaining abt te coldness...but its onli when i slp for te short while den i realized its kinda cold...lolsi like te breeze :p

Lets see wad my frens did with a watermelon..lolS!
Opened te watermelon wif bare hands...fit zai...

Lols feasting time!!....

Looks like erm....lols....

Seems quite juicy lols...

hahas...abit 疯狂 rite...hmm dat was fun...wished everydae was liddat...haiz...it was nice sitting near te beach at nite..enjoying te land breeze....hmm sorta of clear ur thoughts...made ya remincise on the past and things u have done...hmm nice..but juz come prepared wif a windbreaker lols...Stayed up throughout te nite...waited for te sun to come out..didnt get to catch it...


caught a glimspe of te scenery before te sun came out though

Hmm the sky liek got a spectrum of colours...beautiful...went abck after tis...took bus bac..slept along te way..nearly missed my bus syop..went home shower and is adios :p..cyaz

lols..no kick lar...sure A one lols!....anyways 18% nia...tis test din even study wahahahas....but den luckily we saw te teacher and he taught us P&ID....it was worth 30 marks out of te whole paper...was te onli thing i didnt until he taught us...lols..tat makes te paper = no kick...hmm hengz...thanks ar sankar lols...hmm going to chalet soon...

hmm i finally choose to gif u up...-_- lols nice phase...some meaning exist though...ja~

Yoz...todae material science test was quite ok...shld b able to pass lar...wasnt able to rmb much things..so shld be cannot ace it lar...after sch was early, came home at abt 11...dota wif frens lols...PA is strong...hmm yups den went to slp..woke up at 5..had dinner...yups...den now writing tis...studying project engineering later..test at 2 pm tml...hmm tml going fren chalet at downtown east..shld b staying for te nite...yups...will keep u guys updated after te chalet.mayb on sat..cheers n take cares..

btw shi hui, really haven been in contact wif u...y u nt online?..btw u in which jc..u said u wanted to go srjc?..lols ur grades so gd..shld haf gone to a much better jc...how ya promos? shld b gd :p...yups..u so talented, no nit study oso can :p..kkz u take cares!

french test was hard....think i fail it utterly...study only few pages...hmm think out of 40 marks..can get onli 10...the comprehension was extracted exactly from te bk..dats wad my fren showed me..lols...din even go through te book...die le..haiz..liddat lahs....

yoz..todae having french test...woke up todae n study..later on gonna go sch le...wish me lucks bah...french shld be quite ok..the stress one is tml n fri..lols...

hmm was juz wondering if its any use thinking abt things u probably can never posses or have?...wad do ya think?..sumtimes, no matter how much we give, how hard we try or how many thoughts we give it...we usually end up getting ourselves hurt...isnt it like this?...the higher ur expectations, the greater te disappointment u will feel...hahas the onli thing is to look forward, but most of te time, we cant forget abt te past...so ppl can only hope for the best-> hope for tml to be better...dats whr sadness sets in....wads te solution to tis?..i duno..put on a happy front?..maybe...

hmm sadness kills...makes ur memory fail...deteriorates ur physical condition...makes u lifeless...drain u of ur synergy...drains ur life force mentally, physically & emotionally....somehow, someday i will choose to be happy....tireds...

hmm gd morning zeng leng..lols...ur daily newspaper has arrived...hmm te headlines for todae is i saw lingling working at far east plaza..Lothar's edge activated..pls highlight to read further los...wah todae got french exam liao...came back so late...nvr even touch my french scared..thurs mat sci...so many things to memorise...wth..hmm my fren treated me to some place for dinner ytd..wah nt bads...abt $15.80..quite nice..jap place...hmm as usual alvis pang sae us...always put aeroplane arh he...lols handsome ppl is liddat...too busy wif gers :p...hmm gonna go log off le...bbz...anyways time to go to sch zeng leng...dun wake up so early leh -_-..but nvm got newspaper to read lols..

Guess wad interesting thing happen todae?............hahas nth lar...went out at 1 plus to srg gardens..went UOB make my debit card...hmm..cos te card nice wad..lols...posb not nice..think wanna change to dbs..te yellow n red de..looks nicer..yups..if i din go out can play dota wif my frens..lols..sadded...hmm at least todae got frens accompany me lols...after dat went some karaoke called kgarden... had dinner at chomp chomp den went back...yups

hmm i dun think going thailand le..abit indecisive rite...cos cannot confirm before deadline..hope next sem got..den i can go...oh yah..wanted to go temple at waterloo street todae..but kinda late..gonna go soon...

wed, thurs 7 fri got tests...tml sch start early...think muz study tml le...if not i die arh...on wed is french exam..thurs is material science and fri is project engineering drawing...hope i can ace it :p...kkz gtg..cyaz

lols..2 posts 1 day...abit high arh hahas...hmm juz came back from a walk wif my fren...toking about frens...quite blissful to haf them :p...take back my words saying tat having frens can be a torment..hahas...i got a very gd fren..lols probably my best fren bahs..yups my fren father helped me quite alot last time n gave me alot for hongbao for cny...very grateful up till now..cos he sponsored me money to learn violin & tennis...quite ex...but gave up cos too ex..hmm cos my dad like dun really support me in such stuff..no opportunities to learn things like music..piano..sports like tennis etc...i dun blame my dad cos everyone got their reasons n their own thinkings...but of cos i felt sad lar...but no one is born to have everything at their disposal lar...to b perfect i mean...so evryone muz strive n work hard for wad they wan :p

tml fong chin leaving for aus to study in uni..wanna wish her a safe journey adn all te best in uni! bon voyage and take cares :)

Yoz i'm back todae again...hmm came back late laz nite at abt 2 am...yups...hm todae last day of cny, so ytd went fren's hse for steamboat...wooz shiok got abalone lols!..actually nt bad lar.sort of friends gathering...den after tat went to some cafe for some alcoholic drinks and food....i nt pia kia hor..juz went thr chat..after dat went to srg gardens coffee bean to chat further lols...nite was late..took taxi home...actually is share wif my fren lar...handsome boi called alvis...

hmm todae leh? like nth to do..juz played dota...haiz sad lose...i thiink i sux at it lar..craps..always loser = me whahaha...haiz, past few days feeling sad..but think i gotten over it...sad too long is bad for health...hhex...happy le..i feel like going temple to pray..lols! muz b thinking dat i'm mad...cos most ppl go church...haha..yups feel like going..soon..mayb waterloo street dat guanyin temple...later duno do wad...i think muz study my material science abit...cos next thurs exam...hmm my resolution for next sem is dat i muz ace every test...i m kinda tired of slacking..the feeling sux...but at te same time i muz enjoy myself...hope my determination will not fade halfway..cos always halfway den no mood...hahas..

all the best to those who are having their exams soon...jia you! :p..oh ya! wanna thank my fan si who always visit my blog

p.s kaiwen thanks for ur comments lols...100 reader har? ur prize coming hahas...

hmm y do i keep seeing sad things keep reoccuring recently....juz read te newpaper..read abt a guy who studied for his O levels while his dad was diagnosed wif spinal cancer...his dad died the day before his last paper...he visited his dad everydae and yea..of cos it was hard to focus on studying...but eventually he did well scoring a L1R5 score of 16 despite te predicament he was in...throughout his ordeal, he found courage n determination to move on..felt sad while reading it...really admire his character...haiz, why do we always only learn to cherish after losing our loved ones?? why are we always only motivated when the people we cherish are gravely ill?....life for me now holds only sorrow and sadness..it hurts.....

Things seem to be getting froom bad to worse each dae...perhaps throughout tis whole yr...i guesss tis is gonna be one of te hardest yr i gonna live with...everything seems wrong for me...whr is te path whr i can find some light of hope????....failed my inorg test..big fat F...expected it...din even noe a single qns...haiz..although i anticipated it, i cant help feeling sad...very very sad...:(...haf been slacking throughout te semester...cant pick myself back on track...no one really cares anyways...they juz seemed sympathetic maybe...te one tat's suffering is probably only me, myself....haiz...sumtimes having frens can be quite a torment..dont u think so??...its like adding salt to ur wound...they can be gd at times, den pissing u off te next moment...haiz, anyways guess i kinda got used to tis type of frenship stuff...and also seem to got used to the sadness tats always lingering arnd me...i'm feeling v v tired mentally...feel my life drifting awy..slowly...

bored bahs...nth to do..so juz decided come here and write crap...hmm wad i did todae?..arh remembered hahas..had my biochem practical todae..quite ok bah i suppose..todae feel kinda sianz lor..oh yah!..had my semester project presentation oso...the teacher kinda kp lar...dulan..but den everyone still pass..so tats gd bah..after sch go chat wif my frens until 8 liddat den go order a takeaway go home eat...duno y sia..tis few days like so down..haiz sadz...feeling kinda sad lor...now also dun feel like going thailand le...i think tis yr i gonna haf a hard time...juz a feeling..sixth sense :p..hmm my bdae next month, think muz treat my frens go tung lok...lols omg...diez..so many ppl cant afford leh...try to ask my parents bah...anyways hope tml will be betta...ooh i forget..next week my fren lingling bdae(she happens to be in my porject grp)...yup she holding a chalet at pasir ris next fridae..think i going stay overnite thr wif frens bahs...hmm tats all lor...take care -_-

hmm...finally have te time to write a blog again...was suppose to write it much earlier..hahas but procastinate lar...hmm life had been kinda bz for me..been going out since last thurs...yeah nth much, play pool, movies, walk walk etc...yups...basically anything tat s'pore has to offer...excluding clubbing of cos..hahas...soon 18 in march..can go le..but kinda smoky n stuff liddat..kinda turn off le...wad to sae??? oh ya, new yr is kinda fun, colected abt $200, close to $300...went kbox on new yr dae..and it was a killer...was like abt $40 per pax..scary...hmm todae had my 2nd project engineering drawing test..i failed te first one...lols..todae quite ok lar..can pass...but can score anot duno lar...

Haiz hectic week..thurs got semestral project presentation and biochemical pract test...exams round te corner..struggling wif maths and inorganic chem...anyways, the onli thing nice abt todae is i got a new hp...my dad bought a N70 for me...cos he bought his, and got some promotion..2 for $$796..kinda cheap le...nt dat cheap but still ok bah..think i going pay half of it...hmm gonna go toilet..lols so stop writing here..come back again for next episode lols..bb :p

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