hmm yoyo, been working for the past few days...hah my weekend = gone...but the thing is i dont see the money coming in, my wallet still like kinda empty...kinda tiring also...doing all the shit work....carrying dishes, running here n thr, wiping cutlery, washing coffee machine n toaster, serving water...wa being a banquet runner = being superman, worse than a waiter -_-...so much output (energy), but so little input ($$)...hmm later on got driving...argh feel like getting my hair cut also...shall see how first...

Life is unpredictable, it passes in a flash..it hurts..it's untitled...

Yups welcome to reality, this is the harsh truth in life...many a time, we take people for granted. We assume they should be here with us & they will never leave...Until the day they depart, only then will we feel how much it actually hurts us...I look around my surroundings, i see sadness in some corners..i believe all these images serve as a wake up call for all of us..yup everyone of us ,including u..Learn to cherish urself and people around u...Death of loved ones are scary, it's painful, but it's all part & parcel of life...be strong guys..

hmm, yup as adora mentioned...tools and construction, constructor etc....it's not abt buildings =p..it's cause i said i gonna change to be a better person, i'm "under construction", and she said she was the constructor lols...that means i'm the architect...once in a while, we should do some reflections on ourselves. See if we have changed for the better or for the worst..compare the past n present...try to change some of ur flaws and focus more on ur strengths...guess that's wad makes u a better person for urs and others' sake.

This blog entry is kinda long...so sorry hahas...went to make contact lenses todae...my eyesight is fairly gd 50 each on both eyes...but my astigmatism is kinda bad...300 one one side and 400 on the other...so i couldnt get the disposable ones...cause the normal ones only has for astigmastism up to 225...so had to special make mine..cost $280 for 1 pair...OMGGG...kinda sad ald..so ex...he says can last for 1-2 yrs, so gotta take real gd care of it...

Stayed home today, nowhere to go...watched the movie 300 few days back, quite a nice movie..well directed...wondering wad to do cause thr isnt anything for me to do...hmm everything seems so different now, things seem to have change..so bored...haiz sad ald...thinking of how to spend the following week...wandering aimlessly in life haha...lols duno wad i am blabbering about..hahs lost in space...time to rot =p

Yoz...so liverpool won barc on away goals yea?...all those liverpool fans dun b too happy, cause they lost to man utd wahahaha...hmm went to play bball at tp this afternoon...argh my finger hurts, so swollen...went to celebrate nicholas bdae at nite...woo dinner cost me $25 bucks but it was worth it, cause it was Mr nicholas handsome bdae hahas...Happy Birthday Nicholas, let me use one of my bdae wish to wish u happiness even in times of adversity and sadness =) jiayou


hmm back to emo session, hmm nth much to say, thr are words i wanna say but at the same time i dont wanna let it be known...

hmm yoyo...was uber down ytd, but due to my enormous amount of chakra, i have recovered....todae spent my day at home...amazed that i could actually spent the day at home...though its my bdae, yup its a different feeling yea..anyways wanna say thanks to the guys who help me celebrate my bdae on sat..thanks alot, it's my blessing to know the whole grp of u...


hmm thanks to jiabao n grp for the mini celebration...blowing a mini candle on a slice of cake at a fitness corner at nite is kinda cute...the atmosphere is kinda nice..my thanks list icludes: adora, , kai hon,william n grp, jiabao n grp, polymates (zl etc), chung, evelyn, fong chin, margaret, fiona, mahirah, and all those who wish me well wishes...sry if i didnt put ur name =p...thanks for the present shark hahs...and yup for all the presents...

omg, tank zhuan shu tian shi mv is uber nice...=p..the song is uber too...tank is uber ok? owns soldiers n fighter planes haha...gogo fighting!

Had one of the worst night in my life....felt really really terrible...was traumatized and shaken kinda badly....really had to endure it, words really cant describe how i felt...felt so empty, so bad...

i was all alone tonight, had to shoulder so much misery....really really sad....only kh bothered to msg me to ask if i'm ok... yup

had my final exam paper todae...knew how to do only 1 out of 5 qns...so the ratio kinda says it all...guess the longer the exam drags, the more bored i am....mood been kinda bad these days..argh...never been able to understand myself, tts why it brought abt so much emotional pain...

Some things i really wanna give up, i hope i have given up, if not i am trying to give it up...Some things are perhaps not meant to be...By holding on, it only brings u pain & hurt...It's really taxing and tormenting to the mind, heart & soul.....i can no longer hold it all inside, nt anymore...goodbye ='(

If time turns back, i would not have read too much into all the false hopes u've given me..instead i will quietly walk away, leaving u with no knowledge of my existence....but i failed, failed badly in doing so...i kept thinking things would be different, but from the start till the end, it was all the same...i guess i am the biggest fool on earth, i really am..

I hope those happy & sad memories will stop coming back to haunt me, i hope this story has ald come to an end, i hope u'll be happy, always...

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"Happyness is you & me"