Just came back home..had dinner at Botak Jones =D..Well, first time trying it and was quite alright..Had no plans today so stayed back at office to finish up some work...

Hmm thinking back...i used to enjoy the company of my frens, able to crack jokes to keep ourselves entertained..used to have so much laughters..used to be a happy person..but now everything seems like faded memories...i have lost it, lost everything i once used to have..

I have neglected my friends. Perhaps i had taken them for granted or maybe it's just me being too selfish..no matter what's the reason, it's my fault..i have become a stranger to myself and i know the reasons to why i became the person i am now..so many reasons which i dont wish to elaborate on..sometimes, especially on days like this, i feel very tired and jaded. Perhaps by keeping things to myself, by not sharing my inner thoughts, i appear aloof and not trustable to ppl. And for this, i'm sorry.

I just wanna tell u guys i had tried my best, and i hope u all understand that certain things like work, tiredness and my emotions were beyond my control..maybe i wasnt a good fren to begin with, some might say i didnt know how to be one; how i couldnt live up to your expectations..for that i have nothing else to say but to offer u my apologies..I am seriously feeling exhausted..tired of myself, tired of my emotions, tired of almost everything else..

If i could turn back time, i will learn to cherish both friendships and relationships..Being a human with so many flaws make me question my existence.." Do i really understand myself, do i truely know who i am?"..I feel so dumb doing the things i did, feel so tired of trying to be a perfectionist and wont i just grow up?

Well i got a wake up call, and it's about time i start waking up...i guess..

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"Happyness is you & me"